I also want to do healing when I play a healer. The thing is though, when I get good at my healing class there is not enough healing to justify what I want to do. Its as simple as that. Healing every 1hp missing or one block is just as boring as spamming our 1 button nuke.
I want to correctly use EXOG here cause if I use it too late or too early its not gonna be up when I need it. I want to rely on using Regen/Aspected Benefict to heal the tank from the last tank buster cause I need Benediction/ED a few seconds down the line. This, is what I mean when I say I want to be a healer. This is not how the game plays. The game plays to where you can pretty much heal in w/e order you'd like with malms of leeway to the point where instead of being forced to use a gcd, your oGCD is already up and ready instead of still being on CD. Ergo, if you know your oGCD is going to heal how it needs to cause the next raid wide is too far away to actually care do you either
A. Stand there and wait for said raid wide
or
B. Do damage
There is not enough outgoing damage to justify doing nothing but healing.