Embarrassing confessions-

[Asako]

Good, you should get out of NN anyway. It's so bad. The mentors in there are so bad and I cringe every time I see it. Most the Mentors in there haven't cleared any content and all the tips they give are for 'undersized' content. It was always funny getting paired with these same people in Mentor roulettes and then when sprouts ask them questions they haven't a clue on how mechanics or other jobs work.

There will be times when they are trying to explain an extreme fight and you realize all of the information they are giving is completely incorrect so you sit there laughing as they continually wipe.

[NessaWyvern]

Good, you should get out of NN anyway. It's so bad.

Late-night NN isn't so bad, there's more, uh... How should I put it.. "Stable" people on at that time.
I avoid talking in NN during peak hours, because you get some people who want to make an argument over everything. You get to see more (somewhat entertaining) kick-fests, though

[Deceptus]

I don't know the names of most of the skills in the game, even on jobs that I have played for years. When people start talking about skills and rotations and they abbreviate everything (PS, DS, XQ!) I often have no idea what they are talking about.

I know almost all of them but I still don't know a single name from Samurai. Why they used Japanese names in a world wide game is beyond me.

[Anienai]

I'm just finding out about the dancing girls on Ultros (Limsa).

[GrumbleBeard]

When I started in late ARR, someone told me that it was better to skip using True Strike and just do Twin Snakes every time as monk to make sure it never fell off. It wasn't until mid Heavensward that I remembered it existed and started using it.

[Malmstrom]

I'll add another one to the mix. This is a bit of a hard one...

I have never cleared an Extreme or higher fight while it was current content. I did not do ARR Extremes until SB when I could solo them. I have only done a couple of Extreme HW fights because I was dragged kicking and screaming.

Why, though? It's a bit of an explanation...

I have tons of social anxiety issues. That's why a lot of my threads / posts on these forums end up as rude, thinly veiled b****ing, or straight up complaining for something like more open world content. More open world content means more solo play, so it's more I can do without other people being involved.

I have no friends in this game. I have only ever been in two directionless FCs in the entire time I have played this game (shortly before HW dropped), and those I was in only for maybe a couple months. I ignored the people or grew to despise them for stupid and trivial reasons, usually. I have an exceedingly difficult time making friends both in game and out. I'm the worst kind of introvert because I am acutely aware of it and how much I hate it but I don't know what to do fix it.

I do not use the Party Finder to do anything. I have this constant nagging doubt about my competence in this game. Sometimes I feel like I'm fine, and then I read a guide or something on a fight and it goes in a hundred directions and I feel lost. I read a job guide and they talk about optimal openers, rotations, what to do when at what time at what phase at what second at what cooldown interval at what attosecond (heck you, spell check, attosecond is a unit of time) and I immediately feel like if I tried to do anything with any sort of difficulty I would hinder groups.

I read the recruitment requirements on Party Finder and it's always gibberish to me. "TTDDHDQWTFBBQ NORTH TURN SOUTH BANANASPROCKET", and everyone else joins up knowing exactly what that means. I'm sitting here like "Welp, guess that excludes me!"

I use my job as a bit of an excuse. It's a decent excuse, but still an excuse. I wake up at 2 AM to go to work at a fairly physically demanding job. I go to bed before most people even start their raid nights. I'm not staying up until midnight. I go to bed at 1830-1930 on average. I could move to a server in a different time zone, but I can barely socialize with people now, there is no way I'm packing up and moving so I can do exactly that somewhere else.

Even in dungeon runs, my interaction is mostly limited to me pressing the "Yes" emote button I have hot-keyed so my character will nod in greeting. And then I "Yes" again at the end before I leave. That's it.

It's bad to the point where I recently found out a guy at work plays the game. YEAH! Someone I have things in common with! Same music! Same interests! Same video games! I made a character on his server and leveled GNB / AST / MNK to 80 so I could party up with him and the guys he plays with! I haven't played with him a single time.

And Discord? Pffft. I "don't have a mic" if it ever comes up.

Playing this game is difficult for me, sometimes. I enjoy it immensely, and I know I would enjoy it even more if I actively played with other people, but my own mental walls keep me secluded and lonely.

This is probably the most embarrassing thing for me in this game. Not the silly mistakes I've made, or the dumb things I did when I didn't know any better. This, right here.

Anyone that reads this entire thing that I have come off as snarky / jerkwad / sarcastic / or flat out whiny to, I apologize. I tend to get more so the unhappier I get while playing this game. Which isn't to say I'm unhappy because I'm playing, obviously, but because of everything stated above.

...

I'm totally rambling at this point.

Sorry.

Edit - Definitely rambling, it was too long for one post and I had to edit it to include all of it.

[Vidu]

I'll add another one to the mix. This is a bit of a hard one...

...I'm not sure if this really fits into this thread, but I suppose with some... definition bending it could (not that it matters to much, I guess...)

But after reading since post I wanted to apologise for being (hopefully only a bit?) harsh in some of my replies to some of your threads/posts. I didnt really try to put myself in the shoes of someone who might really enjoy this beautiful game but not so much the interaction with other people in it - specially because I used to be the same (doing dungeons to get through ARR MSQ back then would take me hours to muster the courage to queue up for them and I almost never spoke in FC-chat, being ashamed of my - back then - poor english skills and quite certain that no one would really like to chat with me anyways). Since that changed quite a bit over the years, I've adapted a playstyle thats more suited for MMOs - not minding doing stuff in DF, aswell as jumping into PFs, both with a bit of "aroogant confidence" in the form of the thought "Well, I might not be playing stellar, but theres a pretty good chance I'm still going to do better than half of those people, so lets go for it...".
But along with developing that I've seem to have forgotten how I started out here - and even the ability to consider that other people never developed such an attitude or found enjoyment in playing with others and that thats fine, too. Maybe not ideal in an MMO, but still fine.

So... I wanted to apologise for not seeing and/or understanding that - specially within my replies.

I have to say I was a bit disappointed when I checked - against my better knowledge - to see if I wasnt confusing Zalera and Zodiark and could invite you to play together sometimes. Thought it might sound like a hollow phrase considering the difference in datacenters, but should you ever feel like giving playing on european servers a try... poke me or my FC in Odin, if you feel like it!

...writing this felt awkward enough to count as almost embarrassing, I think?

[DBriggs304]

So I have been trying to use between the line more to get me out of tough spots. I use it with Quetzalcoatl keeping key lines in the back in case I need to grab some of the far to reach orbs ge drops.

Well, I thought I would use it the same in Amararout. Right after Therion casts Apokalypsis when you run off to the side, I dropped the ley line in the mid area so I can use it in the proximity mechanic to quicken running to the back.

Well...it didnt go so well. I pulled myself to my death as the fancy mage couldn't traverse the gaping opening between where I was off to the side and the location of my key line.

I hoped no one had noticed...
I was wrong.
Laughter was had by all.

[Kobalos]

Ran a lvling roulette as a WAR and my boyfriend as WHM and went and mass pulled everything in the first room only to realise I had forgotten to pop tank stance and caused my boyfriend to die twice >.<

[Gemina]

I know almost all of them but I still don't know a single name from Samurai. Why they used Japanese names in a world wide game is beyond me.

The name of the job itself is Japanese. It is also mandatory to shout, "Shi'ne!" when using Hissastsu: Senei, or Doom of the Living as a finisher.

Anywho, one of my confessions is I totally killed a player with Rescue. Fact of the matter was I needed another peep to survive a stack marker, and the player I used 'universal pull' on didn't have enough health to survive anything. Pretty cold-blooded, but survival of the fittest I suppose. For the Naruto fans out there, this is what I would call a "Sasuke".