Many years I have wandered this Star… and many more I will wander still. I have not stopped searching. But what is it that I am searching for? This longing inside me… as if my very soul yearns. Every connection I have made on this endless journey feels like a small piece of a nigh-infinite puzzle – a conundrum beyond mortal understanding. What is the goal? To simply keep moving? Am I to wander aimlessly until my very bones split and my mind falls to ruin?

Every trial overcome replaced by another. Every goal achieved rendered fruitless. Why? Is there something of this life that I am missing? Is all truly as meaningless as what I perceive? And yet I still retain that feeling that there is something much more – something I cannot fully grasp.

As I slowly climb these steps, I begin to ponder the words of my adversary. I begin to recall the stories spoken by the shades that walk these streets. My heart glows with warmth as I contemplate these things.

“Hear… Think… Feel…”

As I reach the final step my mind drifts back to a certain poem. A poem that I wrote long ago in a moment of rare inspiration while gazing out at the Eorzean sunset.


Solemnly watching,
As the Stars doth slowly fall.
Where art thou going?
Whilst thou answer mine call?

Carry this Melody,
Observe this Calamity.
Ere guide with thy Heart,
To perceive what is all.

If all has meaning,
Then nothing is something.
Yet if none has meaning,
Then something is nothing.
Twin absolutes,
An entropic mix,
Pure attributes,
Of a World chained betwixt.

Silently drifting,
As the Moon doth slowly fall.
Where art thou fleeing?
Whilst thou ignore mine call?
Bury this Melody,

Beyond this Calamity.
Ere trust in thy part,
To restore what is all.


Like a beacon in the dark. Like an anchor for my will. Yes, this is where I need to be. All my wanderings have led to this very moment.

I reach for the great door before me with my newfound conviction. I may not fully understand the reasons behind my struggles as I live this life, but I know that if I just keep moving all will be made certain in time. As I step into the large room beyond the threshold, I see him standing there. This is the decisive moment.

Another piece of the puzzle.





(Author's Note: This story expresses my overall experience and internalization of the world of FFXIV that I have traversed through all these years. This is my attempt to convey these metaphysical feelings that have culminated within me. Thank you for taking the time to read my words.)

Should I win I would like the Bluebird Earring.