A Shadow in the Blazing Light
Broken and battered, I slipped away through the dim-lit streets of Amaurot. It was amazing how empty the gargantuan walkways were -- save an occasional spectre, only interested in chastising me as if I were a child. If I had any fight left in me, I’m sure I would’ve given them the old “talk or die” routine. But that destructive sensation flowing through me kept me in check. Sheer hopelessness was all I could muster even as I pushed onward, the searing pain of light mutilating every nerve in my body. I tried, I really tried to put on a strong face for those who remained by my side. Yet I truly did yearn for this to be my end. For the light to shatter every bone in my body with every memory that remained. Why? Why must it always be me? I’m only one girl, yet it always falls on me. Because I was blessed with Her divine curse. Magnificent skyscrapers caved me in with a lingering familiarity. Spacious, yet claustrophobic. I scorned the one who sent me on this neverending mission. For every life I’ve saved, there’s been a fragment in my heart waiting for mine to end. I told myself over and over that the world needed me. Ha, how what a load of shite. This city that I -- or whoever I was -- once called home. My final resting place would be the shadow of a long-gone paradise, it too meant only to fade away in despair.
...Had Ardbert not noticed my will to live evaporate, I may not be here today. The pain subsided as his spirit grabbed hold of my face. He gave me a wake-up slap on the cheeks, though his palms were still transparent and touchless. The look on his face was destitute, yet determined. “Is that really all you’ve got, Mana? After all that work, you’re just going to let the wretched light win over?”
Tch, as if. I’ve always been a stubborn one when it came to my pride as a dark knight, and I wasn’t about to let that slip. I drew my blade and smashed it onto the concrete, pulling myself up, my ankles still stinging from the light. I could barely walk and wanted nothing more than to die right there, but something kept me limping forward, a voice in my head reminding me I wasn’t allowed to give up. No matter how much it hurt, don’t give up. That sliver of strength keeping me going… Fray, that was you, wasn’t it?
(Scarf of Wondrous Wit)