Emet-Selch: Ascian, and harbinger of our destruction.
Warrior of Light: Champion of Hydalen, and defier of fate.
Our titles - our roles - should have left us nothing more than enemies. An intersection of ideals was impossible, and when you first strode up to us with your laughable words of wanting to find common ground, I should have felt, as my fellow Scions so plainly did, that you were merely mocking us. That you would take any kindness or weakness and exploit it at the worst moment, betraying what little trust we might have offered.
And yet...
I didn’t trust you. Not at the beginning, and not even at the end, in Amaurot. I wanted to though. Even as I doubted your sincerity, I wanted desperately for it to be true. I wished I could offer you the kindness I’d have shown anyone else - that my role and duties to others didn’t demand, at the very least, silence, if not outright scorn. It felt wrong. Surely we, who considered ourselves right and just, could be better than that. Surely the Hero could be better than that. Yes, we may well need to kill our enemies in the end, but they are… Well, perhaps not human, but they have souls as we do. They have wants and needs and desires like everyone else. Why can we not treat them with respect?
And in the end, now that it’s all done and over with, I think you were sincere. Perhaps it’s just my own wishful thinking, but I believe that, had you truly wanted us dead, you would have struck down Alisae and Alphinaud, Y’shtola and Urianger, Thancred and Ryne, not merely knocked them unconscious. You had nothing to gain from doing so, and everything to lose. Did you perhaps orchestrate the entire encounter? Planned your own fall from the very beginning? To what end?
Now, in the quiet of my rooms in the Pendants, I find myself remembering your expression just before we fought. Your shock, disbelief, then stubborn denial. “A trick of the light,” you told yourself, and I wonder: who was it you saw in me?
Even now, with you gone, you have me at a disadvantage. I know your name, Hades, but I do not know my own. Before the sundering, who was I that my presence would shake you so? That you might, possibly, have allowed me to live at the potential cost of the Rejoining you so desired?
Hades, soul whole and immortal, who loved his world to such extremes he would destroy all others for its restoration.
Myself, soul fragmented and fragile, who yet loves her world in all its imperfection.
I beg of you, what was my name?
(If I win, I would like the bluebird earring.)