My avi... I have a massivly convoluded headcannon about my avi: basicly she's "me" but in a "I gave my soul to her to revive her when she was still-born child" & then my "Shade", (memories, physical body & fragment of soul-stuff) raised her as a step-daughter only to give her all that was left within some years later (so memories & small fragment of soul remaining) to save her from some sorta Void energy based corruption later... I mean I doubt I can say with any certency WHAT she thinks IF that version of reality & her are REAL... its like trying to ask a version of the Doctor, from Doctor Who, what a future version of them is thinking when in the timeline of that Doctor's lifespan (IE: hasn't ever meet the future one & the future one isn't there or anyway able to talk to them)

From a non headcannon RP view... eather nothing or exsistencial terror cause their being controlled like a puppet from an outside sorce, my quess is the 1st one: nothing