Quote Originally Posted by Mistyregions View Post
Did you ever Express these concerns ? I feel like if you had a raid group and you voiced your concerns it would have been fine? Just running from the problem doesn't solve anyting.
Yes I did, I had a long conversation with my raidgroup. And the conclusion was that they more or less kicked me out instead of me leaving, because they don't wanted me to come along when I got depressions from it. Well, I was more than fine with it, it felt like a burden fell of from me.

And yes, I am already getting professional help for a couple of years now.

But social anxiety is... difficult. I'll give you an example of my life: I am living together with a good friend. Usually I am eating a lot of junkfood. And I am feared to buy healthy food because my friend would (probably) do ja joke commentary about it. So I buy junkfood just to avoid that commentary. It's stupid, I know... but these are things I realistically can work on.

The pressure of a raidgroup with 7 other people (where I only know half of them for longer) was maybe a bit too much for me. My head was spinning in "what - if - when" circles and of course it was leading to depressions.