How it used to be...

[Tint]

I think this game has made my social anxiety worse.

A few days ago I left my raidgroup because out of fear of learning harder fights with other people and how they react towards me. Well I know I am technically good enough to clear those fights, but I would prefer to do that together with NPCs to be honest xD. People are rude. Learning the 4th turn of Eden normal was already hard on the edge for me.
I recently also quit tanking after 4 years because of rude people. I know tanking was never the best choice to play in my condition, but it was fun.

I got depressions out of the whole situation, so I quit my raidgroup, changed to DD and plan to focus more on my fisher as my endgame. Maybe I try to clear PotD floor 200 solo to proof myself and all the world that I am not a bad player, I just can't stand the pressure in hardcore content with other people.

[Mistyregions]

I think this game has made my social anxiety worse.

A few days ago I left my raidgroup because out of fear of learning harder fights with other people and how they react towards me. Well I know I am technically good enough to clear those fights, but I would prefer to do that together with NPCs to be honest xD. People are rude. Learning the 4th turn of Eden normal was already hard on the edge for me.
I recently also quit tanking after 4 years because of rude people. I know tanking was never the best choice to play in my condition, but it was fun.

I got depressions out of the whole situation, so I quit my raidgroup, changed to DD and plan to focus more on my fisher as my endgame. Maybe I try to clear PotD floor 200 solo to proof myself and all the world that I am not a bad player, I just can't stand the pressure in hardcore content with other people.

Did you ever Express these concerns ? I feel like if you had a raid group and you voiced your concerns it would have been fine? Just running from the problem doesn't solve anyting.

[Mahoukenshi]

Did you ever Express these concerns ? I feel like if you had a raid group and you voiced your concerns it would have been fine? Just running from the problem doesn't solve anyting.

Generally, when someone has Social Anxiety or Social Anxiety Disorder, something as "simple" as expressing concerns can pose a problem, depending on how and in which areas the anxiety manifests. "Just running from the problem doesn't solve anything" is all well and true, but do you really think that people with SA(D) are NOT aware of it? It's, for example, easy to repeat in your mind "Just talk/ask about it, I know that people are nice", but the body just doesn't "follow".

[Hash_Browns]

Did you ever Express these concerns ? I feel like if you had a raid group and you voiced your concerns it would have been fine? Just running from the problem doesn't solve anyting.

When you have social anxiety, and get it in your head that you would be a problem, do you really think that wouldn't be a concern either?
As someone who gets anxiety from the stupidest crap. In my head the scenario that plays out where I voice my concerns ended up with me being the horrible person.

[Tint]

Did you ever Express these concerns ? I feel like if you had a raid group and you voiced your concerns it would have been fine? Just running from the problem doesn't solve anyting.

Yes I did, I had a long conversation with my raidgroup. And the conclusion was that they more or less kicked me out instead of me leaving, because they don't wanted me to come along when I got depressions from it. Well, I was more than fine with it, it felt like a burden fell of from me.

And yes, I am already getting professional help for a couple of years now.

But social anxiety is... difficult. I'll give you an example of my life: I am living together with a good friend. Usually I am eating a lot of junkfood. And I am feared to buy healthy food because my friend would (probably) do ja joke commentary about it. So I buy junkfood just to avoid that commentary. It's stupid, I know... but these are things I realistically can work on.

The pressure of a raidgroup with 7 other people (where I only know half of them for longer) was maybe a bit too much for me. My head was spinning in "what - if - when" circles and of course it was leading to depressions.