I get what you're saying, and I don't want you think that I am throwing caution into the wind. I am not someone who is unfamiliar with the behavioral patterns of a sociopath. I dated one several years back, and I know all about fake flake apologies, empty promises and manipulation. I took a lot of things into consideration, which is why I did not just hop back into the FC after my discussion with her, and decided to take a break from the game. It's going to take some time to heal from this and everything that has been going on. She's not someone who has "constantly" screwed me over, but her previous behavior is most certainly unacceptable, and I will not be taken for granted.
However, other things have to be taken into account as well such as my emotional instability, and allowing things in the real world to bleed into the game. It isn't just her testimony but the other FC members admitting their own faults and advising me to hear her out after their own discussions with her. It is clear at this point that leaving the FC affected everyone. I did not expect anyone to leave with me, and mentally prepared myself to be on my own again, but I also did not expect them to fight so hard in the name of the FC. What I determined is that the FC leader is not the FC. The other members weren't fighting for her, or even me. They were fighting for the FC, which basically goes bye bye if any of the core members leave for good. Everyone knows that should I make the decision to come back, some things are going to have to change and nothing less than those changes are going to keep this thing together.
In short, this is bigger than just myself or her. I was also being quite selfish during all of this making it all about me and my feelings, and not even considering how my departure would make the others feel and react, and I feel horrible for it. Trust me, this was not brought to my attention by anyone other than myself after I have processed some of my thoughts and allowed myself to cool down enough to think rationally again. However, I do greatly appreciate the warnings. They are most certainly justified.



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