Dealing with Panic and anxiety during high end content

[MetalSnakeXI1]

This is something that I'm particularly really really really bad with

Specifically with savage raids in particular.

Today I finally found a good party to clear O8S with,yet my stupid incompetent ass squandered this opportunity so badly by constantly panicking on Forsaken 2 and losing my sense of direction once I finish dropping the last aoe from the melee dance

I felt like a scum of the earth and legit wanted to die when that happened,I memorized this fight to a T,I did so many retries to the point the whole fight is itched in my mind to the point where it's even playing in my head as I'm typing this.Yet I was that one anchor that dragged our party down and I absolutely have zero excuse for it.

Yes it is a video game but I absolutely hate wasting other people's time especially those who came in legit trying to help me.

Even if I got over my panic and anxiety,once I finish O8S I'll probably quit high end raiding for a long while,I don't think I'm cut for neither Alphascape savage nor the two Ultimate fights.