Is it possible to still find a partner?

[Magic-Mal]

I kept running into people that only wanted the items, or changed their minds laters

Then instead of going on the marriage thread, just spend time with people. Don't chase, admit love for, or try to marry anyone. Just treat people like people and sooner or later you will get a friend that's closer to you than the others. Treat guys like people. Treat girls like people. Don't treat them like the next romance mate or you'll look desperate. The goal should never be marriage or romance but instead be friendship. Don't even worry about the Eternal Bond. It's no different than real marriage. In that it has no meaning other than being just a thing in the end.

All the things you want in your OP, you don't even need marriage to have.

[JackHatchet]

I agree with the guy from Balmung who posted before, Mateus is a good server. Honestly, if RP is something you care about--I'd invest in a server transfer. I personally think relationships are easy. If you know yourself, and you know the person you're trying to get with--you'll find almost every interaction easy.

However, the biggest crux with humanity is that people often don't know themselves, and they're too lazy to learn others. Tack mental-illness ontop of that, and you got a recipe for disaster!

[Rymm]

To be perfectly blunt, desperation is not attractive to anyone except psychos looking for someone to manipulate. Trust me on that one. Focus on making yourself happy and fulfilled without needing to rely on another person, any other person, to do it for you. Actively looking for a romantic relationship is a good way to A) turn other people away because you "came on too strong" or similar and B) land yourself in a really bad one because some really awful people see that as an opportunity to control you.

Make yourself happy. Then you can go looking for someone to share that happiness with, rather than searching for someone to make you happy.