I totally agree that if a player wants to improve they should have the resources available to them and I also agree that the striking dummies are not enough. But I also don’t believe that numbers will tell you if you are a good player or not, you might work out a better rotation but that doesn’t help you with awareness, working together, mechanics.
And fundamentally I think it comes down to this, with bosses and raids the creators want to evaluate a team of players, not individuals. It’s not YOUR dps check it’s the parties. And yes i know some people just are bad and they bring everyone down, and statics generally (in my experience) have far better total dps cause they all know and work together.
you already seem to be beating yourself up about it, would comparing your numbers to others really help? If there are official parsers people will be posting there numbers (which they already do post them) and always someone will be better then you, with higher numbers for a various different reasons least of all their rotation, I just imagine all the people telling *themselves* they suck cause their numbers are lower then someone under very specific conditions.