Dear FFXIV,

I'm sorry things aren't the same anymore. I really am. I wish that things could be like they used to be. Remember when we used to run around Eorzea, the sunlight streaming in Alothia's hair? Remember when we would cast our spells at mobs, and laugh as they fell around us? Remember the long nights of RP and grinding out leves? Oh those leves...I thought I hated them at the time, but now, looking back, it wasn't so bad...

I miss how we used to be XIV. I miss our moonlight strolls through the sands of Thanalan. I miss looking out over the waves of LaNoseca. I miss hearing the sheep bleat in Coerthas. I once dreamt that we'd explore Ishgard together...and maybe we still will, some day.

I just think...that maybe we should go on a break. I mean, we can still be friends. I don't hate you...no, not by any means. You're just...different, I guess. I remember how we'd fight sometimes. The battles were always kinda short, but they were always intense. Sure, I just liked to push your buttons, but I think we both felt a sense of satisfaction when we were through. Even when I'd get caught up in your hellfire...I didn't mind. Because it was you and me, baby. And together, we could do anything.

Now, though...I feel like the passion is gone. When we fight...when we talk...it's not the same. It's as if you're empty inside. I sometimes have to just stand there and wait for something to happen. I mean, you've gotten some new clothes, and a new hairstyle (which is quite nice, by the way), but that doesn't change the feeling that something inside of you is just broken.

I know people said that you were no good for me, and I didn't listen. People saw your flaws, thought your UI was clunky, but I loved it....still love it. I love the places you took me to. I love the people you introduced me to...them most of all. We got along so well...well, at least for the most part. Some of our friends came and left, but that's life. Sometimes we fought, but we came out of it stronger as a group, I think. I don't want you to think that we've parted ways completely. Please don't think that.

I still love you.

I just want what we had back. And I'll still call you to hang out from time to time. I might watch you from a distance, but that doesn't mean that I'm not watching. And I'm not willing to give up on us yet. Other people, people I care about, they might have been ready to toss you to the ground already...but me...I can't quit you.

Just know this, I still have hope for us. If I didn't I wouldn't be here, writing you this letter right now. I would have walked away and never returned. But we've been through too much. You. Me. The Tower. We're family. And I can't give that up.

So please, just give me some space. Promise me that you're still there, somewhere, deep inside. Promise me that all is not lost. Because I really don't know what I'd do...

And don't think that I've left you for someone else. I think if you met him, you'd think he's okay. Besides, he's just a friend. We're not in a permanent relationship or anything...


I do still love you. Now and forever,

Alothia