This might have been said already but... you just need to educate yourself on the fundamentals of SMN. Never mind gear, ilvl, melds, etc. You need to grasp the foundations first, and use that as a platform to grow from there.

From looking at your Apr 4th log, it's clear that you have no knowledge of the SMN opener, or rotation, at all. So right away you're putting yourself at a disadvantage. Therefore my suggestion would be to: find and learn said/opener rotation from a guide (I recommend this one as a start: SMN Starter Kit), then practice over and over on a dummy until you can do it without much thought, and then go into content and test yourself there.