Hey Kaiva, I can understand how you feel since I've recently been in a similar position getting the hang of SMN as well. Personally, I think you're probably being a bit hard on yourself. I haven't gotten to play with you much but I could tell you try your best. Lately I've been trying to remind myself not to be too hard on myself while I'm still learning and getting better. I was a wreck starting out with challenge content as SMN while I was still really fresh to the job, but with some work and support from my FC I've been gradually working past that(granted, I'm still kind of fresh lol). I'm a PS4 player, so FFlogs isn't something I'm going to actively pursue. But out of curiosity I did check and found some people upload a few things for me. Despite that, I'm not actually concerned much with the rankings I have as I'm still a long way from having BiS gear and it would be silly to worry about my DPS being compared to players who are more experienced and have such gear at their disposal. If you're feeling burnt out on DPS, it's probably not bad to step away for a little bit to play something you're more comfortable with. But I definitely encourage you to keep practicing SMN! I'm actually about to start working on O7S this weekend with my static, so I'm just about caught up with you. I say let's give it our all! I think you still have my Discord, so if you ever feel like comparing notes I'd be happy to oblige when I can. Don't lose heart!