You've likely heard of tanxiety (tanking anxiety) but DPS anxiety? I’m (probably) not crazy, hear me out.
I’ve leveled a fair few dps to 70 now (SAM, SMN, BRD, RDM and nearly NIN) and recently I’ve started doing my weekly Sigma normal clears on RDM. I main WHM and more broadly I heal, despite having WAR at 70 I’ve never tanked anything but dungeons and normal mode trials, all I do is heal.
DPSing in content where low dps can actually kill you (Rab add phases and the like, not even talking Savage) is actually surprisingly intimidating to me. As a healer I certainly do my fair share of dps but I do understand on a fundamental level that it's all gravy and if I do have to drop it even during a burn phase to heal that's what I will do and my party should still be able to hit whatever damage threshold they need without me.
As a DPS I don't have that luxury and it's a bit scary. I find myself obsessing about gear and optimization more than I ever have as a healer and even though I know these things should be important across the board I feel the pressure more on RDM than I have ever before, to the point that I’m debating buying the RDM mendacity weapon first just so that I can remain competitive if I have my rotation down.
I understand RDM is “easy” compared to the more complicated DPS. The only other DPS I’ve played at 70 more than a smidge is BRD and RDM is certainly easier to follow but I still feel like I need to always be pushing that much harder. I don't need a lecture about how SMN is so much more difficult to optimize - I get that, I do, but right now this is my hurdle.
At this point it isn't cutting into my enjoyment of the game but I fear it could in the future if I don't reign it in. I was playing with some much more skilled friends last night just doing some Sigma normal and even though I know they're all super cool people and would never get judgy on me I felt kind of embarrassed and definitely made like 12 too many self-deprecating jokes trying (and failing) to cover up ky insecurity.
I play on PS4 so I can't parse myself but I do have some friends who parse and I’ve started comparing myself to some more successful RDMs out there. It's been helpful - I discovered I wasn't making use of Swiftcast the way that other RDMs do, I need to use it to fish for procs earlier and more frequently. I also learned Embolden buffs my melee combo because it counts as magical damage when it's enchanted. I’m hoping making use of tips and tricks like these that I can glean from fflogs will help me improve which will help me feel more confident.
I was kind of wondering if this was a more general feeling or if I’m the crazy one here. I wonder if it's something that anyone feels getting more involved in another role? I have friends who swap roles like it's no big deal. Maybe I'm just being a drama llama.
Lemme know what you think!