Cid,
I want to tell you, before I lose my courage; before I run out of time.
When we first met (and was it really only the first time, back then, when I feel as if I’ve known you all my life?), I felt the world turn me toward you. At first all I wanted to say to you was--why, why are you so sad? How could someone so gentle live in such despair? It only grew from there. I don’t think I need to go into chronology--though for you, I would. Now, I wish to say…
I love you.
I wanted to tell you in person first, but I’m never sure when it would be right; not when so much weighs heavy on you, or my moments with you feel so short. But I mean every etch. You are brilliant; unshakably faithful to everyone you care about. Yet, apart from every rescue and every battle you were beside me, there’s more. You’ve suffered so much… I can still see Bozja on your hands. I see Dalamud, burned into the hollows of your bones; a Calamity’s ashes in your eyes.
Even then--bravery, against hopeless odds. Ingenuity, spontaneous and bright even when the options aren’t good ones. But one thing, one thing above all else, is why I fell in love with you.
You saw all seven Hells and then an eighth. The man you were when we met--who couldn’t remember, and who would break down trying.
And you stayed kind. To smile again, and keep your heart warm. You will always be beautiful for this in my eyes.
And if you need my hands to help you pull away aught else that haunts you, they are yours. They will forever be yours.
With dreams aloft,
-Jyera na Derdres