Haurchefant,

It has been some time since I last wrote to you. The journey has been hard, but it has been fruitful. There are still challenges ahead of me, but I am prepared to accept them and give it my all. The Garlean Empire can throw whatever they like my way, and I will sm...

After all this time, I can’t help but think of you. I thought that perhaps it would lessen or... I’m not exactly sure how to explain. Perhaps it would be best to say it in full. There had been so many times that I wish it could have been said or talked about, but I could never bring myself to even mention it, not even in these letters that I write and leave at your grave. It is Valentione's Day again. Maybe it’s time...

My feelings for you were quite deep. It confused me, and I wasn’t quite sure what it meant. I understand now that it really was love. That is right. The thing that I could never say to you was that I love you, Haurchefant. However, even though my feelings were quite strong, they were not the same as everyone around me. I lacked the attraction that everyone associates with romance and relationships. I feel no romantic attraction, and I feel no sexual attraction.

I questioned whether something without those things could ever be a relationship. I also questioned if you would even dare to try. Would anyone?

Well, now I accept myself. Even if I cannot feel like others, I do feel love strongly. Perhaps I will find a relationship one day. Until then, the Garlean Empire can throw whatever they like my way. For I will continue to smile. After all, a smile better suits a hero...

Nivia

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Nivia Evrardoux, Faerie, Mandragora Choker