As someone who carries diagnoses of generalized and social anxiety disorders, as well as a major depressive disorder diagnosis, I empathize and understand your hesitancy to being social. However, I want to say that you can't have your cake and eat it, too. Someone reached out to you based off this thread and your response to it was to essentially be either disheartened or disturbed. I understand that you want to make connections, but the first step has to be taken somewhere and since you've made it clear that you have difficulty with that, it'll have to come from someone else.

One of my favorite quotes is "if all you ever do is all you've ever done, then all you'll ever get is all you've ever got." If you want something in your life, you have to make steps to achieve it. Even if those steps are uncomfortable.