Quote Originally Posted by Obsidia View Post
I avoid healing due to the stress lol. It's a game, so I want to have fun and relax. There is nothing relaxing to me about healing, especially when an overgeared tank pulls adds wall to wall and I'm still lvling up. I'm just not ready for that sort of thing. A lot of the time when I say that, the tank ignores me and does it anyway, telling me to 'git gud'. You still have like 200+ more of an ilvl than I do, it isn't a matter of skill at this point. >_>

I've finished certain dungeon runs and am left shaking. I know it sounds so stupid and pathetic, maybe I am haha. But...well, it is what it is. It gave me an appreciation for healers though so I commend them more often than I once did. Maybe I need more practice, maybe it will never be for me. I used to be very nervous about tanking as well, but that went infinitely better for me than healing. Guess I just can't handle it =p

I remember feeling very stressed starting out this game as a healer. Normally I play rogue/thief characters but wasn't aware of NIN, so I picked up CNJ on a whim. I felt SO MUCH PRESSURE going into every single new dungeon/trial all the way through the 1-50 msq. I made all the new healer mistakes: casting cure for every tick of damage the tank gets, trying to dps back when stance dancing was a thing and not switching back to heal the tank before he died, pre-pull regen, all that stuff. I remember shaking my first time going up against Ifrit. Never been so nervous in my life.

Now? I raid with SCH and do roulettes as WHM when I feel like being lazy. I feel so good throwing in tetras between my holy spam to keep the tank alive and spreading a CritAdlo on every Maniacle Probe in V2S and being the key figure to the party, throwing out my own dps between heal checks and using my resources effectively to not go OOM. It's still stressful sometimes, but in the way that I go "damn, should have saved Deployment tactics for THIS raid damage to keep everyone topped off for the next attack" or "shoot popped Indom way too early" rather than "wait, you DON'T want me using Fluid Aura?" or "idk what I'm doing so I am now a heal turret"

Meanwhile, I got my DRK to 60 and can now use him for cracked clusters and I STILL hesitate clicking on the lvl roulette because at best I am an adequate tank (meaning I can hold hate and sometimes deal proper dps)