I can see you deleting your posts with the reason "BAN ME NOW". Well then, time to take the kid gloves off.

Cry and moan all you want, you're not getting banned because you're not breaking SE rules. Now, I have given you plenty of ideas and resources to try and help you understand your thinking because you know what, I relate, I know what it feels like, I've been through it myself. You think you've done wrong and you need to be banned for it, but you know what, it's nothing more than delusion. You can repeat it all you want, but people see straight through it. They know you're not breaking the rules. Yes, they're getting annoyed, but annoying someone isn't a bannable offence. Tell yourself all you want, shout from the rooftops, all you want, but this twisted ideology is NOT the truth. And no amount of shouting saying it is true, will make it such.