Unlocking Sam and blazing through the MSQ was so exciting. I couldn't wait for each new zone and twist in the story. And that final fight, so epic!! I had so much motivation and dreams of all the things I was going to do once I hit 70.

Then I wake up today and diddled around for about an hour not really feeling like committing to anything before logging out. I thought I really wanted to try RDM and Bard and Whm and see how they had changed but after a few runs through POTD I realize that everything pretty much plays as it always has plus or minus some number and or graphical changes. Sure the new ui bars are neat and the new graphical effects are nice to look at the first 10 or so times you use a new ability but after that its the same old same old.

The dungeons were nice and had some refreshing mechanics but after doing it the first time its just going through the motions. I thought I was really excited to raid again and I am super intrigued by Omega but the thought of grinding dungeons for weeks on end just to gear up to do it just doesn't do anything for me anymore.


It probably isn't the game, I see tons of people loving the game and wanting to play non stop for hours and days on end. I am an aging gamer who started his MMO journey back in the wee old days of FFXI launch. I miss the times when community was the number one factor. I miss the days when vent/teamspeak were filled with friendly voices just chatting away while playing. I have tried so many different guilds from the close knit to the massive and now unless someone needs something there is almost never any chatter going on besides the random spurt here and there. Discords are empty unless needed for a run.

The game itself just isn't enough to keep me going on its own and the community has changed too much from what I grew up with. Am I the only one that feels this? How have you dealt with it? Do you just pick something and go with it hoping to find some fulfillment in the action in the end even if you aren't enjoying the journey? I love FF and love the concept of this game but I just don't know where that spark went that kept me logging in day after day. I don't want to be that guy that just shows up when new content is released to do it and then disappear again but that seems to be the direction I am heading.

I don't know if there even is an answer to these questions, just something I was pondering in the shower this morning.