A few things..

I've been a hardcore gamer (and comic reader) all my life. Yet never had i ever attended any kind of game con, or any such event. (Though I always wanted to go to E3 because that seems to be where the good stuff happens) I LIVE in Boston, and literally not far from the convention center where PAX is held. I always wanted to go, but never paid attention to the dates, and by the time I would find out about it, it was always sold out. I never made much effort to find the after market tickets, and just said to myself, I'll get to it one day.

For some reason I always remember PAX being here during warm weather. And did not even think it would be in winter. 1 1/2 weeks before PAX a facebook friend announced he was selling some tickets. I told him I would buy a Sat pass. I really wanted to attend the SE FFXIV panel, especially because of the Expansion coming out. I've played this game since 1.0, and have never gotten to meet or see the team in person. Always via streaming. Anyways, I still did not pay attention to the date of PAX, thinking, it must be this spring, and made not rush to meet up with my Facebook friend to get the ticket. Then he sends me a message Sat Morning "I'll meet you outside with the pass". Me: "OMG, that's TODAY!!???" Rush to get the pass. Line up. My buddy who does not play FFXIV but loves PAX comes to the panel with me. As he is interested in the game.

Now... I will say... I hate, Hate, HATE public speaking. I'm terrified of it! I listened to the questions being asked hoping someone would ask the question i wanted to hear. But no one did. I was a bit frustrated, because while people are free to ask whatever it is they want, I felt a live Q&A could have used a bit more juicy questions. But hey.... everyone has different interests. My good buddy, kept telling me to raise my hand. I kept refusing. He then starts telling me... well, you know what? You cannot complain if you're not willing to stand up and ask the question you want to hear.

I practice in my head over and over what I will say, how I will say it, and how to keep it short but convey all I wanted. I knew there was a translator, and I know sometimes they paraphrase long questions. I don't remember if I was the final question, or if I was the 2nd to final. But I braved up, and raised my hand. My buddy began frantically waving his arms trying to get the guy with the mics attention and pointing at me. The guy walks by me, thinks for a second, and turns and hands me the mic. All that mental prep work went out the window, and I was SO nervous. My voice cracked the second I spoke, and I stuttered. I tried to ask the question the way I practiced as best could, yet it still all went out the window. I was scared, nervous, hand shaking. I HATE talking in front of a crowd. Even giving class presentations in college.

Anyways, I'm writing this post because there seemed to be confusion over what I was actually asking. I never thought "I" would attend a game con, let alone get to ask Yoshi P a direct question on my very FIRST time attending. Unfortunately from the answer it sounded like he answered something I was not asking. Maybe I stumbled too much in asking. Maybe I did not make it clear enough. Maybe the translator did not understand me well, and translated it differently than I intended.
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