Of all the things that hit with 3.5, the Garo event was the one that barely registered on my radar. Yet here it is, and my friends are all over this. One is a "veteran" (as in, used to play regularly as DRK, and I would assume very well), the other two are a BRD and NIN that completely fresh but want the gear/mounts/titles/everything. And then there's me, who barely picked up the new anima step is mostly interested in upgrading it to keep up with the PvE game. I too, have never stepped into PVP, although I had a bit of a mind to with the minions and music. But one look at the PVP skills tells me I have a hotbar reorganizing job to do, and one I'm not exactly looking foward to. Not to mention figuring out the how's and what's and why's of each skill. I play SMN, with BRD as a second choice (which I will turn to later if I start the 270 anima step with it).

This isn't to say I have a distaste for PVP or the community as a whole. But it's like trying something new for the first time in a fancy restaraunt that you've never even heard of. I mean, you have to at least attempt to eat whatever it is that's on your plate to appease your present company and not look silly doing it.

Simply put: my mentality is that if I go into anything new, I need to at least at like I'm not being a liability. It's why I still haven't stepped into Thordan or A1S farms or any EX Primal since release, even though I'm ilvl 256. So as SMN, what do I do that won't get me yelled at? Frontlines, Feast, whatever I get dragged into. I went into Shatter last night and I guess I did okay. I mean, our team won but it was just confusing and on edge for me. I focus targeted one of my party's healers just so I wouldn't get lost and at one point I actually lost that target and got stranded a bit until I located them again. I can't remember all the end match stats but I remember it was something like 0K/1D/5A and damage numbers of around... 30k each? Afterward my friends took some downtime and I just went back to crafting to sort of de-escalate my nervousness.

The thing is, I really don't want to end up by myself while my friends PVP all night every night, but again I don't want to continue being a liability in every match and get myself cross-server blacklisted because I get nervous and mess up.

Because character limit tl;dr: I feel out of place in PVP but my friends are gonna do it because OMGGARO AND GLAMOURS AND MOUNTS AND WE ONLY GOT SIX MONTHS!