Quote Originally Posted by Janhyua View Post
What make it weird is that even after 5 months I know I have forget and forgive but some how this hatre stored for 5months just burst out of control today

any advice?
Dealing with rage is an internal, subjective issue.
It's going to be different for everyone and some people definitely have it harder than others.

Anyway, this is what works for me, hope it helps:

When I was a little kid, I got mad once and I hurt a friend.
Now, when I get mad, I remember that feeling of guilt I had when I hurt someone while angry. I remember how the rage clouded my mind and I basically did something I didn't really want to do.

I don't like not-being-in-control of myself, it scares me.
I also don't like hurting people. Especially people I care about.

Remembering these things, and remembering that rage is a pathway for me to do things I don't really want to do anyway (accidentally, or in a not-thinking-things-through way) is a blocker that is very helpful for calming my feelings of rage.

Hope that helps. Good luck!