When I logged in today and when to the party finder and there it is, The person i blacklisted appear on Party finder and it was grayed out showing that I blacklisted this person

what make me Burst out of rage is that after 5 months of blacklisting this person I still hold so much hatred toward this person

I would like ask for advice from fellow community, how do you deal with such hatre?

well the reason why i hated this person so much is because she is my previous raid static leader and also my last static I ever joined

The amount of scar left on me to the point I dont want to raid anymore

what make it weird is that even after 5 months I know I have forget and forgive but some how this hatre stored for 5months just burst out of control today

any advice?

Sorry for the bad english