I just want to say I'm really thankful you all are offering me solutions instead of making fun of me. I actually expected to get responses along the lines of how I need to grow up. I just can't help that I have this fear. I will see if I can get some people this weekend and just step out and get carried. I hate making someone do all the work for me but at least maybe I'll get through quicker than waiting on some sort of intervention from SE. Thanks everyone.