Thank you all for your replies. I took the advise that many of you wonderful adventurers gave (starting my own learning pf, asking others in the pf if they are willing to teach etc) Even though i did not get positive results with starting my own pf, I asked raiders who wanted to clear content if they where willing to teach me ( via sending them tells on their pf) they kindly said yes after they cleared their own content. Shortly after, a learning party was looking for my role and I told them I was eager and willing to put in the work and dedication and can take constructive criticism. They invited me into their static so i get to do AS1 tonight! They also invited me to do Thordan Ex that same day. We wiped over and over again to the knights , but that didn't phase us because we where having so much fun laughing and joking. I guess I just needed to get out of my cocoon a little bit and be a little more assertive in what I wanted out of this game. Now I have 7 new friends on a server where i only had one or two tops. So you guys where right it is hard, there are raiders who only have a fixed amount of time and cant help newbies, even if they wanted to and I respect that. However there are people out there who want to make the overall raid community better by teaching the mechanics, giving tips for better rotations. Making people feel comfortable and relaxed once you get into that content. I feel like i have a better understanding of my job now then just running the same two dungeons everyday especially when it comes to cool down usage. All i really had to do was just ask the right people. Once I learn this content and future content I think I'm going to pay it forward by starting up regular learning/training parties so that other people can get into the raiding scene, because thordan is challenging at first but its the most FUN I've had in this game. All someone needs is an opportunity, just like I was given one. Then maybe NA server can be just like the JP servers, which was mentioned by another poster.m
Either way thank you all for your responses. It motivated me to not be so shy.