I get where you're coming from, but you really just need to step back and rethink your strategy. Turn your short term goals into long term. At this point, crafted 185 gear is pretty cheap on the MB and more than enough to get you into Alex normal or diadem. You've got several paths to gear up now.

As for the relic weapon, you don't HAVE to do it. It never really outclasses other available weapons by much at any point in its life cycle. Its meant more to give people something to work for when they're bored than anything. And hell, depending on your job, your ESO or alex weapon may even be better. Gobdips will be made available soon enough.

You don't have to do the grind. There's plenty of other options open to you.