The Greystone Bastard (naming lore query)

[CyrilLucifer]

I don't know, I agree with Cilia to an extent. I believe it was repeated by another NPC, it wasn't just Ilberd saying it.

My viewpoint of it is that you are a weapon, but a well-cared for one, affectionately groomed, tempered, and well-oiled. You're not a weapon they'd care to lose, but other than Minfilia, who does show some interest at times, they aren't particularly interested in the weapon's mental state, at least in 2.X. It was a bit better in 3.0.

This really came off hard on me after Keeper of the Lake when, "lol, so what if you have a dragon in your head mocking you, sealing your power, telling you how insignificant and unworthy you are? We have things to do, get back to work!

Oh, and, you know, it would probably be pretty bad politically if you let anyone know about it, so keep it a secret, k?"

The first part is basically exactly what happened to Thancred, but he was driven by his own dark emotions rather than an external, extremely overwhelming primordial force whispering it and exerting influence, as Midgardsormr does to you. Look what happened to him when he pushed himself like your character does and no one stopped him.