Quote Originally Posted by PriestAlseid View Post
My DPS suffers enough when I'm running SMN because I usually end up having to help heal, so I'm worried about actually playing my SCH which I'm avoiding now because I'm intimidated completely by the whole healing thing here. I'm thinking I'll just stay SMN and not be a healer, just cause right now doing everything is a scary concept. I don't actually enjoy DPS, but oh well, it's either that or stop playing and I don't really wanna stop playing.
Sounds like you have a typical case of Healer OCD*. Just keep in mind that "not healing" is also part of healing. There are a total of 3 healing classes. If Scholar "scares" you, give Astrologian or White Mage a whirl. If anything, don't level as a summoner to 60 and switch back to Scholar afterwards. You'll miss out on the learning curve if you do.

* When a HP bar falls below 99.9% the player feels extremely uncomfortable and demands it to be topped off, even if 99% of the healing spell is ineffective.