So, here’s the the deal.
I am currently at SCH/SMN Lv. 60 and WHM Lv. 56. I’ve been gearing up my SCH, and at ilvl 164 by sometime next week will likely be ready for Alex Normal provided I keep doing Ex Roulette every day. I’m excited, because I used to raid heal back in World of Warcraft. It was some of the most fun I ever had, and I’m looking forward to doing so again in FFXIV.
On the other hand, however, I’m finding myself on the horns of a dilemma.
Here’s the thing: The only reason SCH is at level cap is because I insisted on going through the HW MSQ as SMN. Which I’m sorely tempted to try raiding as, but I’ve learned DPS+dodging don’t mix well for me (and my first try at Ex Roulette as SMN ended with a member claiming I was ‘carried’ which was certainly discouraging). Keep this in mind, it’s going to be important.
For raiding, the eventual intention was to go in as WHM, but for various reasons, it’s taking *forever* for me to get it to level cap. The gear I’m getting as SCH is/was ultimately intended for WHM (thank god they share Law gear). But as I keep running dungeons and learning, SCH is growing on me. Being poised to get enough Eso tomes to buy a i120 weapon next week, it will soon be time for me to make a decision.
Now, I would be perfectly happy switching over to SCH permanently and healing as that, except for a huge hang-up: The perception that SCH is essentially a hybrid Healer/DPS. A SCH is under *huge* pressure to contribute DPS. Remember what I said a couple paragraphs ago about trouble dodging while DPSing is why I’m otherwise not going to raid as SMN?
I have latency issues, which I’ve somewhat fixed by using WTFast. But even with that, it turned from ‘Ahahaha yeah dodging Landslide isn’t going to happen’ to ‘Fighting chance but only if you move NOW.’ The ‘downtime’ while healing is often spent watching my feet and the focus target. In this, SCH is potentially a better fit than WHM. Slap Alodiquium or Succor before the attack happens, don’t have to worry for those precious few seconds I’m running for my life.
So here’s the dilemma: If I stick with SCH, I’ll likely be pressured to DPS, and will likely be considered incompetent when I inevitably fail. Even if I’m otherwise good at my actual job of helping to keep everyone alive. On the other hand, I don’t know *when* I’ll be able to level-cap WHM. Leveling it is giving me burn-out, a sharp contrast to the precipice of excitement I’m having with the soon-ready-to-raid SCH. But WHM is under much less pressure to DPS. At the least, the ‘DPS for a minute or two’ expectation for WHM feels more manageable than the ‘DPS and only sometimes heal’ expectation of SCH.
TL;DR The expectation healers have to DPS may potentially drive me away from the game for a while. :\

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Eventually I learned to tolerate it for progression and don't mind it so much now, mainly because I feel confident about playing healer (and I think Astro had something to do with it) and because I just want to get the content over with as fast as possible. 



