I'm on the autism spectrum, and I have a lot of issues with social anxiety - someone suggested joining an MMO as a way to build up my confidence etc

I've been playing for a few months, and this is my first MMO. I leveled up to 41 as an arcanist then tried to go into Stone Vigil. Every time I tried I got kicked before we even started. I got so much abuse, even got threatened with being doxxed. Since then I've done everything I can to avoid dungeons.

Now I am a white mage at lvl 41.

I tried Stone Vigil twice yesterday - my first time back in dungeons for a month - got abuse for not healing quickly enough or dodging attacks - then got kicked when I said it's my first MMO.

It's freaked me out and I am scared I'm going to get everyone wiped.

I'd appreciate any help or advice - I love this game and I don't want to have to give it up.