I have two stories..

Grinding for zodiac, I got Halatai HM. Tank was well geared, dps was good, and it was early in the evening so I was awake as can be. I've healed plenty of speed runs, so I figured it should be easy. Tank went for the large pull and I figured I'd be helpful and help with shadow flare as I usually do. Sadly, I somehow forgot to hit my cleric stance/hotbar swap macro, so I instead used swiftcast -> sacred soil -> cleric stance -> somehow burnt swift on something dumb -> slow shadowflare -> canceled and tried to swap out to adlo tank -> wipe.

I apologized and tried to shake it off.. Tank went a bit slower and my heal/dps dancing was going somewhat poorly but not too dangerously. Tank decided to go for another larger pull and I proceeded to do the same damn derp, except managing to lustrate the tank to keep him up, and eating the dirt again myself (from an aoe maybe?). I was quite upset with myself at that point, so I told them they should votekick my ass and get a decent healer.. the tank said something along the lines of "don't worry about dpsing bro, it's ok to just heal." I wanted to crawl into a hole and die, but I am glad he was so nice about it. ;_;

Then last night, Stone Vigil hard.. I have fallen asleep in that dungeon and still managed to heal through it at least twice. We had a paladin tank with Zenith, i100 left side, and a mix of i49-i80 tank accessories on the right.. should be good. Both dps were decently geared blackmages. Good attitudes all around. And yet.. somehow, we just utterly failed at the first half of the dungeon.

The tank only took one group at a time, so I figured I should easily be able to dps with Eos healing, plus have enough time to drop stance if I needed to help heal. He took a lot more damage than expected, but it was mostly manageable. I think we wiped to one of the first.. or at least had several close calls. First boss, my friend blm was killing adds but the other blm ignored them.. no biggie, I figured. Towards the end, I was tanking 3 adds while my friend was dealing with a fourth.. when suddenly I had 3 dots, saw my hp drop to 25%, then die a tick later. The adds immediately steamrolled my friend, but then the boss died and all was well. I released just as the tank offers to raise, then took the shortcut.. saw a hallway.. figured I was before the boss room.. charged ahead. I immediately turned around and came running out into the boss room, dragging the next pull with me. ;_;

We cleared that fine, but shortly after, somehow the tank took a critical shot and dropped.. right after I had did a swiftcast+shadowflare. I got out of cleric stance and tried to heal one of the blms, just to have him die midcast. Switched to the other and threw lustrate, but he quickly followed the first. Stubbornly, I decided to try to heal myself through it since I wasn't too far from the shortcut point.. but the group decided to wait for me to die/release. I gave quite the valiant effort of adlo/lustrate, but, just as they came for me, I took a critical hit and dropped. I promised to stay out of cleric for the rest of the run, and other than the one blm getting smacked around a bit by the final boss, it ended smoothly.