RNG doesn't hate you

[swordrain]

"You performed 1,000 FATE's in a 48 hour period? Do you have a life?"

No, I did them over several months. I don't even know how many. I just made it part of my daily routine. I just remember because I had been keeping track of how many fates until my 3000 fate achievement was done, and I just knew before I started. I looked back at it this weekend, and realized I had gone 840 fates through that period of time with only two drops. This weekend I only did about 60 fates since I was also running frontlines, and that brings the total to 900 fates with two atma.

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I'm getting over it, my boyfriend convinced me to give up, and that it was ruining our fun ingame once I realized how much time I had wasted a couple of days ago, we both got really frustrated and angry. We've settled on getting the other 110 weapons now. I'm just the kind of person that is obsessive about goals and my self esteem rides on completing those goals, whatever they are. I said months ago when I finally hit level 50 on all my classes except lancer that I'd do many things, getting a zodiac weapon was one of those things. It's impossible for some people to understand, but I feel like trash now because I failed miserably at what I set out to do. I don't care what obstacles are in the way of my goal. I failed. It's hard to look at myself until I feel I do something to redeem myself of my failure.