Quote Originally Posted by swordrain View Post
I've done everything I can for months to downplay how much time and energy I've wasted in this, and I've had seriously depressing bouts of drinking and anger after having long weekends where I got all pumped up and was grinding for 15+ hour marathons, only to receive NOTHING. It's been a huge blow to my pride, my self esteem, and my personal time. Atma has basically given me PTSD for any RNG mechanics at all
You need to just stop then. Again, I'm with you in that the entire Atma system can be done better - but whether RNG or not, if a video game is ever frustrating you to the point of sending you into an exceptionally emotional or potentially self-damaging state, you need to back out. And possibly seek help.

That's not an insult, I'm saying that out of genuine concern for you. That is not a healthy level of response to any activity, whether a "badly designed game mechanic" or your work environment or your relationship status or anything.