RNG doesn't hate you

[swordrain]

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Okay I'm sorry...its just been really hard for me to accept this. I always do things 100% in everything, and I never surrender or give up on anything, even if it ends in utter failure. But I can't win against this RNG, and there's no way to "fail" either. I've done everything I can for months to downplay how much time and energy I've wasted in this, and I've had seriously depressing bouts of drinking and anger after having long weekends where I got all pumped up and was grinding for 15+ hour marathons, only to receive NOTHING. It's been a huge blow to my pride, my self esteem, and my personal time. Atma has basically given me PTSD for any RNG mechanics at all.

And then to come here, to see someone like the OP say, "that can't happen!" and call people like "me" ludicrous and liars is just so insulting and hurtful.

[Krr]

And then to come here, to see someone like the OP say, "that can't happen!" and call people like "me" ludicrous and liars is just so insulting and hurtful.

Attempting to disprove lived experiences with numbers is the infamous realm of antisocial gamer jackasses. I'm sorry (and I mean it) that you had to put up with it.

Someone call Mulder and Scully bc this person is an X-File. I don't doubt you've found yourself unlucky, but that number is so improbable it is a statistical impossibility. There is no way you experienced something as rare as 100 to the 10 thousandth power. Literally every other anomaly known to man would happen at the same time before that would.

Technically with the number given of "two million players" there would be about 20 people who've experienced the "impossibility" listed in the OP on average.

[KarmaCha]

Technically with the number given of "two million players" there would be about 20 people who've experienced this "impossibility" on average.

Write the number 100 on a piece of paper. Then put 20,000 zeros on the end of that. That would be the probability of failing something with a 1/100 chance 10,000 times in a row. 2 million is nowhere. Nowhere in the realm of possibility for that. But then again, you and I are referencing two different things.

[Garlyle]

I've done everything I can for months to downplay how much time and energy I've wasted in this, and I've had seriously depressing bouts of drinking and anger after having long weekends where I got all pumped up and was grinding for 15+ hour marathons, only to receive NOTHING. It's been a huge blow to my pride, my self esteem, and my personal time. Atma has basically given me PTSD for any RNG mechanics at all

You need to just stop then. Again, I'm with you in that the entire Atma system can be done better - but whether RNG or not, if a video game is ever frustrating you to the point of sending you into an exceptionally emotional or potentially self-damaging state, you need to back out. And possibly seek help.

That's not an insult, I'm saying that out of genuine concern for you. That is not a healthy level of response to any activity, whether a "badly designed game mechanic" or your work environment or your relationship status or anything.