
Originally Posted by
Namnesor
You want the truth, man? The cold, hard truth?
I wake up every morning and I stare at myself in the mirror; sunken eyes, jaundiced cheeks, strands of white in the hair, a new crease in the forehead, receding gums. And I scream to myself, It's not us! Damn it, it's not us! I fight back the urge to just end it all, to escape this persecution, this hatred. But no. I push forward. I tell myself things can get better; another lie to make it through the misery that is the next twenty-four hours.
I choke down a mug of terrible coffee while I read the news. The headlines are all the same. PBC steals another hunt mark, FC graduated to 'Double Hitler' status. I murmur under my breath, it's not us. Damn it, it's not us. I change my shirt three or four times, staining the fronts with tears, before I'm too numb to care, at least for the moment. It lasts long enough to get me to my car, the tires slashed, the windows smashed in, the words "THIEVES GO HOME" spray-painted across the hood.
I hate taking the bus. It's nothing but angry glares, racial epithets and insults aimed at my gender and sexual preferences. I want to shout, I want to yell, I want to tell them, but no matter what I do it only echoes inside my own head: it's not us. Damn it, it's not us.
I show up at the office, and the boss is already waiting for me. He looks worse than I do. I'm honestly surprised HE hasn't ended it all. Instead, it's two, three, four, five, six, seven, EIGHT hours of discussing, theorycrafting, strategizing, how do we get them all to believe? The day ends, and we're no closer than we were when it began. They just don't understand, and I don't think we can ever make them.
It's not us. Damn it, it's not us.