Something needs to be done. I've built and rebuilt and keep rebuilding friendships and groups. But the result is always the same; they quit. No matter how hard core, how close of a friend, or how dedicated they are - they end up quitting despite my attempts to keep them enthusiastic and motivated to play.

Today a friend logged on after 2 months of missing in action and said "well at least you still haven't quit, I would be shocked if you of all people ever did".

But I'm getting there. I'm being pushed there. And then I ask myself, should it be this hard to enjoy the game? I'm a hypocrite, I myself am not happy but keep beating the drums to go on. It dawns on me, like an epiphany sent down by an angel from God, "go on to what?"

More of "this"?

I don't think I will.