Tank mentality.

[GrimmWulf]

I see, well I hope things turn around for you and you meet some nicer people in your pug groups.
Otherwise just try to make some premade groups where you can speak with the players before running dungeons with them

[JormungandrVanagandr]

I'm kinda hot and cold. One run a mistake may not bother me, but on another run that very same mistake may twist my insides to the point where I type something unnecessary into party chat. When I'm angry I can say some incredibly scathing things that just pick people apart, but if I realize I went too far I'm not above apologizing in the middle of group chat to the victim.

Some of us become douchebags over the course of time after having our psyche worn down like waves hitting a beach from prima donnas that we just can't take any more crap from them. So sometimes our first instinct is for the lizard brain to take over and just kick some e-ass. I'm not particularly proud of it, but it is what it is.

I do appreciate the compliments I have received after a lot of runs though. Things that range anywhere from "Wow, so much better than our other shitty tank", "Best tank ever" after solo'ing the last 30% of the chimera in Cutter's Cry on my PLD alt to "You should write a guide on how to Warrior tank" after an AK run even though I outgear the crap out of the place makes me feel much more grateful than any "Thank You" I type into group chat can possibly communicate and make the woes of tanking worth it. 100%.