Quote Originally Posted by Awha View Post
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I hope that clears up some things. I am not happy it became another size of pull thread I was trying hard to avoid it, but I also did not want to keep using my original cases cause I saw how that could been seen as targeting.
I think you've actually gone out of your way to expand on what you're saying, honestly. My post above wasn't aimed at you because whether you like it or not, you're needing more than what can be reasonably delved into in a forum like this. So - with respect - what you're asking for is help and advice tailored for you specifically and this is not the place to get it. This is why I mention in my above post that you may be best served locating some external advice, especially when you can sit down face to face with someone much more qualified than us randoms on this forum. We can talk about game stuff, sure, and skirt around quasi-psychological reasons for why any of us does anything, state of the game and whatever else, but you're asking about something much deeper than this and because it's going to go into things you've admitted to finding difficulty with, you're better served and deserve to find someone who can explain it and guide you through what it is you need assistance with. You might not like this answer, but this is not the forum you are looking for and your answers are not here. We are fluff at best. You need something more.

I hope you get it figured out, and should you ever magically find yourself on the Light data centre, pay me a visit and I'd happily shoot the proverbials with you. For what it's worth, asking the questions is always better than not, even if we don't like the answers.